Gesture...Red...Fragrant...

Made aware of

....his entry
....his presence
....his absence
....his permanence
....his importance
....his love
....my love

By his Gesture...Fragrant and Red...

Filling up my life...

I want to..

The weather is beautiful today and I just don't feel like working. Just one of those days..actually its not 'just' one of those days. Its a day when the rain gods have been very kind. The sun has not been seen since my waking hour today.

So we have decided to celebrate by ordering food (Papa John's pizzazzzz, to be precise) in the office as well as wrap up work by 4 pm today and go out for movie, shopping or just go gallavanting... Its not a day to work...no!

I added my share of celebration by sitting and writing new blogs and completing old ones, finishing incomplete mails, missing people I love and generally wishing they were with me today.

Nunu, Di, my nieces...I miss you
Ted...i miss you

you know what my idea of celebrating is ...definitely not having pizzas or going to the malls or movies...no...
you know what I want to do?

I want to go to the water park today
I want to go for a long drive
I want to be gifted beautiful flowers
I want to be lifted high up in the air
I want to fly off a cliff
I want to run in the wild
I want to dance away in your arms
I want go to the sunflower fields with mudzy
I want to have this day to myself and for all those who I love
I want it to last...
so that when you come back I can do all this with you..

You know what?
Its a pleasant day, but something is amiss....
you..

If Past = Present then Future Tense?

Build a future on a past?
How long do you think will that last?

How can, one build a future on a past?

Yours or someone else's how does it matter
One comes first and follows then the latter

Life a string of moments lived each moment
Don't let past be it's degrading rodent

Present, let that be a gift

Wrapped in beautiful colours, a pretty ribbon
Be prepared to face, when you pull that open,

The chasms, the skies, depths and heights
Love and hate, and glory and spite

Take it all in your stride

Woman! Remember, if Past = Present
Your Future will always be Tense!

Just learn lessons from the past

Treat it as a Gift, a Present and
Build your future to make it last!

Each Encounter Has A Reason.. Does it????

Something i often wonder about .....people enter your life,

Stay on, some for a little while, some for a longer while , some who you were destined to be with all your life.

and leave imprints ...some deep, some light enough to be sanded off with the winds of time., some beautiful motifs, some just merge with you while others just add another shade to you. at other times leaving beautiful sceneries of life...mountains...echoes..

Some as deep as ocean, some as high as sky, some as vast as space, some as small as atom...but each has a reason..

and then there are some who move out,
some of them leave scratches, some leave craters,
some.... nothing.

Some people who enter, are mysteries..... those that you don't want to solve,
Some who you want to be solved by,
Some who you want to explore,
Some who make you implore...
Some people make you wonder..

Some bring out the best in you
Some of them the worst

Some make you uncomfortable
Some too comfortable for words...

The reason may be revealed later
But all encounters have a reason...

Some enter too early in life
Some too late

Some are fullstops, some are commas, some apostrophes, some semi colons, some even accents

But.....there is one, only one entry...an (!) exclamation followed by continuity (...) and so on'

Timeless...Priceless...
Leaves you
Speechless...breathless...
Fills you with wonderment, excitement...
Emotions.. love and passion,
Joy, Togetherness,
Want, Limitlessness

One that is Eternal....

Reason...?
Reason...?
Reason...?
The encounter which cannot be reasoned...

That..
..is Love

Fly Away My Little Birdie

As I see my little darling being packed off -my little baby, a woman
As she dances herself into her happiness - her beau
As her life takes another turn - her journey
My heart cries out to her- our separation
Cries out of happiness - their togetherness
Cries out of a happy pain - tears
And I dance her away into her happiness - my dream

My little baby, A Woman
Her Beau
Her Journey
Our Separation
Their Togetherness
Tears
My Dream

A want to have been able to spend more time with her

Wonder how I'd be able to choose my colors without her nod or her nay;
The trial rooms will seem alien to me and the mirrors willl not understand my language;
Our room will keep wondering where is my other half;
My sight will search for her all over...

Will she ever come back as the same naughty girl who will make me search her up and down all around the house, until I will finally find her waiting for me in my own almirah replete with a bhaoooo and then hugs and kisses

Will I ever get a chance to keep little notes and a chocolate or two in her almirah

Will I ever open the gate for her at 12 in the night? just like each time her set of keys was forgotten at home?

As my vision blurs with pain streaming down my cheek

I also wonder who would I hug, my silent partner
Who will understand yet feign no understanding, my baby sister
Who will trudge up to me saying di, coffee? because i love coffe while she does not take a sip even
Who will pull to a stop in front of the vendor and say di, icecream? oh how she guages my urge

Who will pull out all the stops by standing up for me whenever, wherever

Who will balance it all...how on god's patch of this earth will the space ever fill up?
How in my heart will this space ever fill up

Now that you are taking her away, do treasure her the way I do, you will won't you?

Fly away my little birdie with your beau
Let the nest you build strengthen, protect, blossom and chirp with a forever togetherness

He Came; We Met; He Conquered...

He came
flashed

He spoke
unabashed

He felt
Pure

Love
Let it endure

We met
Melody

We;Our Souls
We; Our Thoughts
We; Our Hearts
We; Our Tastes
We; Our Sight
We; Us

He Conquered....................

Whale of a time!! Off to Singapore - II

2nd mar 2005 (0414hrs Indonesia Time)

1st mar 2005 (lost count of IST!)

I planned to wake up early in the morning today, but slept very late last night due to the rains. So when I did get up in the morning (very late :-!) the clock had been put forward by an hour already. and it was very smoky.

We are passing the Sumatra region...Sumatra is very hot and dry which leads to lot of forest fires. The air smelt of wood smoke in the morning and the visibility was very poor. have been seeing fishing boats throughout the day today. What a contrast to the rains last night. It was just awesome...with nothing but water around you...Force 6 wind blowing in your face...raindrops were falling on my head...lalalala :-)

Also this was one of the more affected areas due to the earthquake and tsunami...Crew here says that they saw bodies floating all over during that voyage of theirs. PONL Colombo had just sailed from Colombo when tsunami had started, but the impact of tsunami is least felt by those in the middle of the sea than those close to the shores.

In fact also got to know that the vessel I am on actually killed a whale on one of its voyages. The whale got stuck in Bulbao's Bow. The crew could not understand why her speed was not as it should be. They checked out all over the place until, they realised that there was something stuck at the bow!! They tried to free the poor creature, but couldn't manage in time enough. These are indeed hazards of misusing nature in nature's context.

Coming to food :-)

vegetarian food? well the cook here is sweet and tries to make separate veg food, but I end up having soups, brown bread, salads, nutella ummmm...fruit icecreams, mayonnaise, thousand island dressing over everything, wine...if you notice..hehehehe...all things fatty save the wine :-P

Other than that you only have lots of beef, ham, sausages, fish etc etc etc....

Anyhow...i cooked in the galley today! They only had hamburger for lunch, so me went ahead and told them that i wanna make aloo ki tikki to make veg hamburger ;-)

Those people had no idea what a veg hamburger is :-o!!!

Preparing aloo ki tikki in the galley

Am sure have gained atleast 2 kilos here with cheese/mayonnaise/nutella over everything/icecreams with less ice more cream..or so it seems after i have had my fill ;-)

It 0930 pm Malaysian time. We are nearing Port Kelang now. the coast is glittering with lights all over...gotta go up on the bridge as do not want to miss anything.

In about half an hour, the pilot will berth the vessel. Am excited about the operations that take place right from the time the pilot comes on board till the time of berthing, so for now am off

Bye and take care

Lots of love

Me!