Tum Bano Khushi

Tum bano khushi kisi ki,
Kisi ke namkeen neer mein mithi muskarahat bharo
Kisi ke berang jeevan ko rangeen karo
Ye zindagi bahaut hai chhoti
Isse jitni khushbuyen, jitne rang, jitne swad
Le sako le lo, de sako de do

Tum bano woh khushi ki
Karahta hua jab dard
Dard se bhara hua jab dard
Apne dard se chhutkara paane aaye
Tab bhar do uska bhi daaman khud se
Itni khushiyan do ki dard apna wajood hi bhool jaye!

Weaker Sex / Stronger Sex / Equals or Confused??

Writing this because today I felt bad about having done something which I did not rectify immediately and which made me realise how selfish I was in that moment.

I travel between my workplace and hometown for work using shared cabs. That is the only way to travel for lack of a proper public transport, unless you are driving by yourself. I don't prefer the second option because its crazy driving through a perpetually jammed road. So everyone wishing to head back home from Delhi, waits for these cabs at a common point.

It usually gets late for me by the time I leave office and reach this point. And more often than not females to males ratio is very low. Today, it was zero...

As I waited for a cab to come, I saw the number of people waiting, like me, increasing. Time ticked, number of men increased and hopes of getting a cab kept decreasing.

Finally...a cab, with a capacity to carry just 5 people, did stop. All the men rushed forward to take available seats, as much as I did. I was eyeing the front seat to avoid getting squashed in an all men's backseat!! But another man reached out for the front gate and almost got into it, when the girl in me requested him to sit at the back (which was slowly getting filled). Poor fellow actually got out, but by that time the backseat to was full and the cab started

I felt pathetic at having taken advantage (in a way) of my girl status, to gain the seat, while he got left behind. Even though I know that it would not have beeen prudent for me to have fitted myself in the backseat with men floating all around, still felt wretched at having used my weaker sex status to gain something from someone who had already claimed it.

Its amazing how we actually use this factor- being a girl- to our advantage most of the times. Sometimes by using the "weak" status of women-Be it in the bus to gain a lady's seat, or in front of the ticket counters to avoid standing in the long queue, or to get parking in better spots!! and at other times by asserting our "Equal to Men"/ "Stronger" status- the feminist.

Am sure the opposite sex could not be more confused about the definition of weak, strong and equals! or maybe we are the ones confused about it!!!!

Wondering if you may have come across instances where we confuse ourselves into being weak/strong/ equal t men, depending on the situation. For starters:

• How many of us have actually gotten up to give a seat in the bus to an old lady/man? I hope quite a few. I do this more often than not.
• How many of us having actually gotten up to give a seat in the bus to a young man. Am sure none. Me neither!
• How many times have you decided to give Lady's Line a pass and actually stood in the long queues for that railway/airline/movie ticket?

My God - Me Part 2

Today had a discussion with my colleague on my post "MY GOD - ME"
Thoroughly enjoyed the dialogue, and thanks to Vamsi, I got to understand my thoughts even better as I debated with him..Following are the excerpts (modified to the extent of removing typos. which are an oft repeated phenomena while chatting!)

vamsi: ok your blog MY GOD - ME
what according to you is god?

Life: power within

vamsi: do you pray

Life: yes

vamsi: if you have the power within you then whats the need of praying

Life: the need is to keep echoing to yourself about this power
if you say you are powerless, well you are powerless

vamsi: do you go 2 temple

Life: depends for me even the sun is energy which is yet again the power within

vamsi: yes or no

Life: i even go to gurudwaras, mosques, churches, leave alone temples

vamsi: ok to keep echoing 2 urself ....is it necessary 2 go to temples

Life: no

vamsi: then why do you go

Life: who said that i go to echo myself, not at all
remember i said god is the power within.
within u, within me
within people around
within dogs
within birds
within living and non living
as i said for me even sun is power within
power within ALL
power even within ur thoughts that are flowing now
and the thoughts that i am right now putting through
both are godly
both are power within u and me and now power between us as we share each others thoughts :)

vamsi: quote:the need is to keep echoing to yourself abt this power....

Life: yes, so?
please revisit each thing that have said
its the power within
need to echo to MYSELF this power
which power?
power within
within who?
did i specify ONLY the power within MYSELF?
no

vamsi: thats what i am askin when you are the god ....
so u dont know what power you are havin?

Life: yes because YOUR god is what you make of yourself
if you think you are powerless so shall be your god
because it is the power 'within'
the day you decide to reach within and shake this feeling of powerlessness...well that is the moment your god becomes powerful once again because then the very decision to
not remain powerless anymore is enough to make you powerful :)

Your Deepest Crevices...

Can I visit your deepest crevices....?
coz its there that you have your deepest fears,
your darkest secrets,
where you are most alone...
and its there where i'd like to share your loneliness...

I desire you to fill them with my thoughts,
so that each time you visit your deepest crevice,
i fill up your senses....

Your deepest crevices...
i want to make them mine..

Why does love hurt?

"Do i trust myself enough to fight with my thoughts which are out in the open..... Can i really handle them"
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I have no idea why i wrote what i did in those dots and so many other etceteras....
I may be opening myself to a lot of hurt....rejection, refusal...

Each time I think of you...the pain pierces through my palms, my fingers...
My heart beats so hard that it hurts me...
It becomes hard for me to breath....
And I get goose pimples........
Yet I wish this hurt be mine...
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Still wondering shud i send this to you or not......
Whether its one other time where i shud be prepared to get hurt.....?

Sure of myself....unsure of whats in store.....

Me....

My God - Me

Yes HE is in Ignorance too...

What is God but the power within,
Who is god but you..

If you choose to be ignorant...your god will be ignorant too.

If you make yourself unattainable your god will be so.

If you are your own expectation then god is too just your expectation.

Yes, you are bang on..when you say "Maybe he is not in anything and in everything"-
He is the "thing" and "no-thing" all simultaneously so...
because without the "thing", "no-thing" has no identity

Are you, your capability, your wish, to make your dream come true, beyond you?
If yes, its beyond your god too..

because my man,
God is none other
God is but you...