Smo(c)king!

Kill me!
Burn me!
Asphyxiate me!
I want to die inside!
I don't have anyone to love!
Not even myself
I don't have anyone who loves me!
Not even me!
hah! life is too short enjoy it!
Why bother about health and things like that!
Let me get that taste!
I have to die anyways, let me live it to its fullest!
Live by dying every day!!!!!!
S'mo(c)k'e myself to death!

You must be wondering me, that hard core advocate and supporter of "No s'mo(c)k'ing", why is she writing this!!!

Today a colleague of mine 'N', sits right next to my desk, came in and said, ":) Hi! Are you better today, in mood and health?"
(was not feeling well at all yesterday and was under tremendous work pressure)

"Much better thank you", said I and then a whiff of s'mo(c)k'e, I was surprised and shocked!
"N, you s'mo(c)k'ed!!!!????"

":(, Yes I did."

"I thought you don't s'mo(c)k'e , had quit?? :-0"

"Yes, actually a friend caught me down at the porch and just s'mo(c)k'ed...my wife also does not know. I used to s'mo(c)k'e 15 a day at one point in time."

" Then how did you manage to leave s'mo(c)k'ing....it must have been really difficult right, doesn't the s'mo(c)k'e beckon you?"

"Yes, was difficult, but just left it, In B school I used to s'mo(c)k'e 15 a day and used to get tired in 2 games, now even 10 at a stretch don't tire me out. By the way do you know that a person who s'mo(c)k'es, and leaves it needs atleast 7 years to repair all the damage done? I advise everybody, don't ever s'mo(c)k'e once you have left. Not even that one off, because two lead to four, eight and in no time you are back to s'mo(c)k'ing as many!

Whats to it? Whats so great about s'mo(c)k'ing? There's nothing good about. Can you imagine being held in a gas chamber, where there is very little oxygen and you are burning and asphyxiating to death. Where you can't breathe because well there is nothing to breathe in, there's only s'mo(c)k'e that breathes you in. Just because its not you but your lungs that are facing this, does not mean you should happily keep s'mo(c)k'ing while your lungs go through this gas chamber every second of the time you spend s'mo(c)k'ing. I don't understand, I don't....

You'll See It When You Believe It!

Carrying on I thought life is going great
Suddenly a streaking light and I put on the brake

A voice said

"Take stock
You might just mock
At your own complacency
Without knowing your actual potency!"
Why don't you start living?
Start Living Now, LIVING DELIBERATELY!"

"And here I say again my friend- Take stock
Take stock now and hold on to that thought!"

Belief leads to your Experience
Belief leads to Reality you make!
Belief leads to what you choose to create
Belief leads to your own fate!

Your own belief, Deliberate and Sure
Knowing, Conscious, Aware and Pure!
Nothing my friend, nothing more
Your own belief, Deliberate and Sure

Stop believing --> "All what I have is where it ends "
Believe instead -->"This is the beginning of great things at my end"
There's more than meets the eye to see
Start creating your own reality

The mantra it seems is very plain
Behold!
Power of this pulls you out of the mundane

I'll believe it when I see it!- STOP NOW!!!
You'll See It When You Believe It!-
Live Deliberately, Create Reality That's How!

Believe it!